Wednesday, June 10, 2009
Wishcasting Wednesday...What do you wish for your body?
This week, Jamie asks us, "What do you wish for your body?".
When I was growing up, I was painfully thin. I only ever heard the messages that I was too skinny. I was flat chested forever and I had short, frizzy hair that my mother made me keep short because she said that I'd never be able to grow it long. Body image issues followed me around for years; even in to my adulthood. I finally started to "fill out" sometime in my early college years. After the birth of my first child, I got a gift of a day at the salon. My hair stylist had my hair...and hers was long! Ever since then, I've worn my hair long. Occasionally, the body image issues come back for a visit. It's taken me a long time but I am finally pretty comfortable with my body weight. I work out at the gym 3-4 times a week and I like to bike, hike and kayak. I have a scar that runs the entire length of my back due to a full spinal surgery when I was 16. I have two tattoos which I forget are there but sometimes regret.
At 44, I'm beginning to notice that my hair is changing texture and is harder to maintain and I wonder some days if I'm still holding on to it as a rebellious statement. I can't eat "anything I want" anymore without gaining a few pounds. So today, my wishes are:
To simply love my body and hair and all the changes that go with it as I get older.
To continue feeding my body good food and continue with the exercise.
To always honor my spirit and passionate nature
P.S: Go check out my new art over at The Painted House :))