This week, I'll be turning 45. The idea of "luxury" is an interesting thought right now. I'm not exactly a luxury kind of girl. The luxuries that I wish for certainly aren't things that anyone can give me and they aren't necessarily things that I could easily reach out and grab for myself.
I'd like the luxury of aging gracefully. It's time to color my hair again and I made the decision yesterday to let it come in gray from here on out. I've been coloring my hair for 20 years. The first one came when I was 25; now everything coming up is gray. What's wrong with aging anyway? If God intended for women to look 30 for their entire lives, he would have stopped the aging process for us right there. Why is it that when men turn gray, it's distinguished but when women turn gray, it's time to hide it with artificial color? It's actually quite hideous how the world is obsessed with stopping the aging process. Just go to any drug store and stroll the aisles. Face creams, anti-wrinkle creams and the list goes on. I'm certainly not a beautiful woman by magazine standards but I'm still happy with the genes that I've inherited. Mantra: I do not have to be a Barbie Doll to be accepted.
I'd like the luxury of waking up and having just one care-free day. I'm inundated with the stress of being unemployed and feeling inadequate because I'm not doing something impressive or contributing in bigger ways to our family. I'm trying to turn the other cheek with my ex-husband and stand my ground but he's on his own little vengeance trip and I've come to expect some type of ambush daily.
I'd like the luxury of seeing my son have a care-free life with no bullying and, if I could add in an extra wish, a few friends for him to hang with.
I'd like the luxury of experiencing peace with my daughter. What I wouldn't give to exchange conversation and kind words with her. I'm not sure which is worse, the deafening silence or the bitter words.
I'd like the luxury of taking about 75% of the clothes I own and hauling them out to the curb. I'd love to replace and update everything. Ok...that was one materialistic wish.
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I love your luxuries! I too decided this year to stop coloring my hair and let the gray come in!
ReplyDeleteI hope you have a Happy Birthday that is as special as you are
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My dear friend Jane, you are beautiful, beautiful, beautiful!!! Your beauty shines through you and touches us with your posts. Thank you for sharing your heartfelt wishes with us and as you wish for yourself, so I lovingly wish for you also!
ReplyDeleteAs Jane wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
ReplyDeleteYour wishes are beautiful as are you, I agree we should just age gracefully instead of holding off the aging process, it is what's inside that counts. As Jane wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
ReplyDeleteAs Jane wishes most beautifully and sincerely for herself and her family, so too do I wish for Jane all the luxuries she desires and so much more. With all my heart♥
ReplyDelete~Shamsi
As Jane wishes for herself, so I wish for her also!
ReplyDeleteMay your luxuries come to you easily and effortlessly now. As Jane wishes for herself, so do I wish for her as well.
ReplyDeleteAs Jane wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
ReplyDeleteOhhhh well...First Happy Birthday - I will be 49 in a couple of weeks. I am so with you here. As Nonni my youngest went off to school this year - I realized I am old compared to the young women there. It also occured to me that..I just didn't care anymore what they thought of my wrinkles or gray in my hair. I had something most of them will not find for years..I am happy with me! So I say Let fly with the gray girl - it will be stunning on you - I just know it!! Your son - I so deeply wish this too. Your daughter..trust me here..she will come around in time. Breathe and hugs, Sarah
Hi, Jane. I don't think there's anything wrong with materialistic wishes, because we and our needs and wants are part of the material world as much as they are of the spiritual.
ReplyDeleteI so sympathize with you regarding being unemployed. It's not a matter of being occupied with work, because there's always too much to do; it's about none of it paying off and having to cut corners for your family and feeling somehow responsible, as though you should be able to wave a magic wand and provide everything your family wants or needs. (Or at least that's how it is for me.)
As Jane wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
-TimK
As Jane wishes for herself, so I blissfully wish for her also.
ReplyDeleteThe hair thing drives me nuts! I got my first white when I was 13!
Lately I have been making it chocolate and pink for FUN but I also get tired of WOMEN asking me why I DON'T dye it when I leave it natural!! Arrgghhh!
As Jane wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
ReplyDeleteHappy Birthday Jane! As you can tell from my picture, my hair is silver. It started when I was in my late 20's. So I understand. I decided about six months ago to stop coloring it. It was a hard decision, but I am very happy with it. I love it, in fact.
ReplyDeleteAnd, here's the thing...if you don't like your hair in its natural state, you can always change it again. So I say, GO FOR IT!
Next, about your son...this is something all parents are concerned by at times. I wrote a blog awhile back that you may find interesting if you didn't already read it. And, more than my post, I think you'd find the comments helpful. It's called: Bully Or Teacher? Here's the link: http://hollydietor.blogspot.com/2009/05/bully-or-teacher.html
I hope it helps you consider some thing for your boy.
As Jane wishes for herself in this, her birthday week, so I lovingly and with intention wish for her, also!
Many happy returns of your day, Dear One!
As Jane wishes for herself, I so wish for her as well...
ReplyDeleteDon't worry honey, my wish was pure materialistic!
ReplyDeleteAs Janes wishes for herself, so I wish for her too!
As Jane wishes for herself, so I joyfully wish for her also. May all your wishes come true. :)
ReplyDeleteAs Jane wishes for herself and those she loves, so I wish also! :)
ReplyDeleteBeauty is in the eyes of the beholder, and I behold a stunningly gorgeous woman inside and out! May your son find the friends and belonging he deserves. May your daughter find her way back to you. May you find the job that is absolutely right for you. May you have the funds to make delicious changes to your wardrobe. And may you have more than one carefree day! :)
Oh! And Happy upcoming Birthday!! :)
ReplyDeleteAs a most beautiful Jane wishes for herself, I wish for her as well.
ReplyDeleteAs Jane wishes for herself, so I wish for her also.
ReplyDeleteThere must be a way to find yourself a day off...