I've been thinking about completion this weekend. When I take a closer look at my patterns, I know that I tend to start things, get about 3/4 of the way through and then abandon the project. I'm a journal junkie. I love to write every day and I love paper. This month, I bought 2 new blank journals and started one already. The problem is that I already have a perfectly good journal that is half way filled and begging to be finished. Why is my brain wired this way? I look around at all the other endeavors: happy creations that need to go on-line, aprons that still need ties, a hand painted chair that still needs to be finished, a quilt that needs to be backed and sewn. Three reactions came to mind immediately:
1. Leaving things half finished drives me crazy
2. There is something centered around the idea of "fear of completion"
3. Am I being too hard on myself? Should I just let it go and go with the flow?
What would happen if, God willing, I actually focused on one project and made the decision to commit to finishing it entirely? I know I would be so proud of myself if I did. Is there something I fear in that? I'm going to be giving this some deeper attention as the month continues.
Here are some photos I took this weekend that make me smile.
A new journal page:
Big creative messes around the house:
Bento Box lunch:
Candid black and whites of Breen:
Jane, I'm just like that too. Always starting new notebooks and journals, when I have a perfectly good one on the go already. I put it down to the love of paper, the promise of newness .... but I also see myself as someone that fails to complete or see things through. I get great ideas for new projects, and feel really inspired, then they sort of tail off, unfinished.
ReplyDeleteI'm trying to work on it too, so if you have any breakthroughs, let me know.
Bright Blessings.
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Every day is a new day and can be completed as anticipated or not. That's how I explain my projects in various stages of completion. And yet. If I've laid it down and moved on, it's completed. It's served the purpose for which it was begun and I need not worry about it any more.
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm not going to worry about whether this is inspired thinking or merely rationalization. :)
I forgot to say that your "God willing" is interesting. What if He doesn't mind the various projects in various states of completion. What if He's thinking, "Wow, she's fabulous, look at her go!"
ReplyDeletexoxo
i'm so with Mary Ann - "wow, she's fabulous...!"
ReplyDeletei used to do one journal at a time, start to finish, i have a huge drawer full of them, documenting my life, my love, my angst. and then, something shifted & now stuff just *pours* out of me & there's no possible way that one lone journal can handle it all. i have like 5 going on right now & it feels so freeing!
follow your heart, there's absolutely no way it will lead you wrong. i love your art, your creativeness, your messiness, your flow. and i love your pictures :)
Omg, again the Journal Pages. Such art! I'm glad you had your Dad today, it can be a crappy day when they just aren't around anymore..
ReplyDeleteI think you are FAR too creative to focus on just one project. You're mind is too quick paced to work on just one thing. I can't imagine if you tried, you'd probably bitch more! :P haahahh
your journal pages are awesome
ReplyDeleteI love your photos, I have been learning how to use my new camera. you inspire me
peace and hugs